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Guided intro to Satsang (Intensive, Zurich, April 22 2011, morning)
So let us first meet in silence, with the eyes closed, having the feeling that you are just dropping everything: your name, your life story, your expectations in life, your plans, your schedule.
Allowing the body to just let go into this moment as it is, just experiencing what it is to be in this humanness.
Waves of energy, fluctuations in consciousness: you've got no control over that. There is silence and there are sounds; you are aware of both. You are aware of sensations, of comfort, discomfort.
But you're not doing anything to be aware: it is simply your nature.
It is always your nature, no matter about the coming and going; so taking This moment to really allow the meeting of This that is aware, that is the same in everyone, nobody is more or less of that, and taking this moment to rest in the meeting of that.
With the eyes closed, where do you end and the other begin?
And you see, there is no boundary. Just resting at home in yourself.
A human form, carrying a unique experience of humanness; yet at the core of it all there is no separate thing called the person.
With the eyes closed, the more you drop into yourself, where do you find what you call ‘me’?
This ‘me’ in this moment is Aware, Spacious, a Silent Awareness.
The Miracle of Being
And in a moment we will come to the surface, into the sharing, where individuality appears.
Before we come to the surface, give yourself This moment to taste, feel, sense, experience the magnificence of the miracle that you are.
And when you feel ready, give your body a little moment to experience this amazing machine, this vehicle you're traveling in.
What is Looking Through Your Eyes?
And take a moment to see what it is that looks through your eyes!
Really just take a moment to see what is looking through your eyes, what is that?
Always you say 'me', 'I', I'm looking through the eyes; what is the quality of this?
Beyond Words, Beyond knowledge
Hello, welcome; I'm happy to meet you all again, some faces here are new to me, and some faces are new to each of you, but what is behind the face is the same.
Each and everyone having a unique experience, a unique body, life story.
How does this happen?
In each moment you can notice those waves moving through, a little wave of nervousness arises and falls, a little ah, a little eh; every second it's all moving and changing. How does it happen?
What is doing all this?
What is that? You can only say: I don't know!
Thought and Energy
Your mind can come up with its blablabla, tralalallala, reasons, hows, whys, whatever.
But it would never speak the whole of it. Words can never speak the whole of it.
So what we are meeting, what we are sharing, what we are bringing to light here is beyond words.
So we won't get stuck on the words, we won't hook on the words and turn them around and give them meanings and all of that.
But words carry energy, yes? Every thought carries energy; what you give the life force energy to, gets bigger, right? You've seen it. If you start to energize some little story, khhrhhhg...it grows! whatever you energize, gets bigger.
But where does this energy come from? What is the source of all of this? This little mind will never be able to put That in a box.
Change vs. Stability
But what you are, every single cell, every single little flicker, every single cell is coming to life in every moment and dying: being born and dying, being born and dying is constantly, constantly changing, renewing.
And with the mind we try to fix something in place and hold it and keep it, and make it something stable, that we can rely on...
But the truth is that everything is dying and being born every moment and you have no control over that, you've got no control over the next thought.
Oneness and Uniqueness
Each and every one of you in this moment is perceiving and processing every word that's being spoken in your own unique way. There is only one listener, but the process of filtering is absolutely unique. There is only one listener, there is only one speaker. I don't know something you don't know, I don't have something you don't have.
I'm saying: I'm watching the thing happen like you! And just watching the thing moving, these hands, look: just watching the thing moving and watching it happen.
Separation and Search
But when we take ourselves to be the one who is doing, the one who can control, the one who is driving the life: we keep crashing, we keep bumping into things, and this drives us to look for what is real, what is true.
Direct Experience – No Teaching
So in our meeting we'll be focused on finding what is real, what is true by Direct Experience, not by any kind of teaching - I don’t have some kind of teaching, which is the good news, for me.
I don't have to carry anything, you know! Only my bags, quite heavy: I have to pay overweight everywhere I go! I carry too many toys, but I don't carry any teaching, I don't carry any fixed idea..So we'll be looking through direct experience like something that right now is standing by itself as absolute, Yes?
That's the way we will go along, and the only thing I appear to do is facilitate that direct experience.
So I like to say hello, by hearing your voices a little bit. Is there anybody who would like to start?
Guided introduction to Satsang (Dharamsala, April 2008)
Falling and letting go
Falling into that place in you which is always quiet, and watching the muscles and the tissues of this body relax, letting go, letting go of all your stories, all your expectations, all your ideas, still allowing everything that comes and goes to drop.
Whatever comes will have to go
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And falling into That which does not come and does not go.
Letting go into yourself.
There is nothing to get, there is nothing to become.
Simply being yourself, giving yourself one moment not to look for anything, not to tell any story, just to rest at the centre of Being itself.
Vibrational Being
Tasting, feeling, sensing into This moment as a vibration.
A vibrational being, is what you are. Feeling into yourself as vibration. And with the eyes closed checking to see where you end and something else begins.
Can you find where you end and something else begins? With the eyes closed, you cannot find any separation.
Feeling into the whole space, the whole vibration, the whole vibrational field as yourself.
Allowing everything just to be, no matter what the sensation is that arises in this body, the sensation is always changing: you are not that!
Being spacious
Just in this moment, with no idea, with no story of any personal life, feeling into yourself directly as the whole space and everything that arises in this space, not landing anywhere, not becoming identified with any sensation of good, of bad, of happy, of sad, allowing everything in this whole existence to move through like waves of energy passing through spacious Aware Presence.
Tasting the fullness of yourself.
Nothing is missing here.
And letting go into That!
Peace
Into the wholeness, into peace, into what you are.
This you can never loose, and this you cannot become.
And this can welcome everything!
All the ups and downs in the world of experience, are welcome.
Resting at home in yourself, the search is over.
A separate form
So in a moment we are going open the eyes and come into this experience of being in a separate form, having an individuality and take a look at what is really true.
Before we do that, give yourself this moment to recognize, to taste, to take a drink from the fullness of yourself. And then slowly, as you feel ready, taste the taste in your mouth, feel your body, this incredible miracle of form that you have taken for this human experience and as you slowly allow the eyes to open, notice what it is that is looking through these eyes.
So, Welcome to Satsang!
Ananta’s way
For those of you who haven’t been in a sharing of Satsang, just a few words about the way that I am sharing That.
Satsang is not a lecture and is not a teaching, I have Nothing to teach you, it is a meeting, a meeting of That which we can only point to with words.
Words can never speak it but they come close, so many ways of speaking it we have heard, we have heard so many flavours of what the ultimate truth is, and if you have come this far and you find yourself in a yoga hall, coming into this space, you have already prepared yourself in some way, you are coming to line up to find the truth of yourself.
That’s what you are looking for, whether you know it or not.
What we really want
At the end of the day that’s what you really want.
So, there are so many ways and flavours, using so many words to point to this. The way that I’m sharing is through Direct Experience, to trigger that taste, to really trigger that direct experience, so in this very moment you taste That which cannot be spoken and there is a recognition in your system - ‘Ah’ – of something which you already know, you already know!
The seed at the core of Being, itself has the potential to become a flower, right? But in the seed everything is already known, so it’s not that anybody can... it’s not a teaching, is not something that you’re going to study and study and come to realize through that.
From past teachings to Being here now
The teachings would prepare the mind only, would bring an intellectual understanding, which is needed: first an intellectual understanding coming: ‘oh, we hear it’, we hear so many things about being here now in this moment.
What does it mean to be here now?
What does it mean to live life, knowing yourself as Now?
Knowing yourself as what has been called God, you know?
First we get the understanding: ‘oh yes, everybody is That, we all come from the same creator, all these intellectual understandings, they bring us to a certain point, then....
This
...This, This, that looks through your eyes...
This that’s looking through every pair of eyes...
Whatever words we want to give to it: awareness!?
Is it aware?
Is it aware right now without you doing that awareness?
Just notice what happens in the system right now!
It rises, it falls.
Awareness itself is not touched by that arising of some touch, of some sensation, maybe fear, maybe whatever we can name it.
But, it’s rising, it’s falling, it’s passing by... It didn’t touch that which is aware, that IS.
Where we put our attention
But we go on looking, we go on looking always at what is appearing, we are always putting our attention on what is appearing, what is coming, what is going.
The attention is always going there, to find fulfillment, to find what we are looking for.
We always go out, we always go to what is appearing.
There are moments of satisfaction, but they come and they go. There comes a moment when we really realize that we are not truly fulfilled by what’s coming and going.
There are beautiful experiences, there are ups, downs, but this is not really it.
Getting ready
So when we get ready to start looking truly for : ‘Who am I? What am I?
Who is the one who is searching? What am I in this form? What am I doing here?’
When we get ready to ask ourselves That question, and that becomes the ultimate, that becomes the highest value, to know, and by itself…. that readiness is calling!
Every experience that comes into your world, every experience is pointing you to That.
Every experience that you are bringing to yourself is pointing you to show you where it’s not: it’s not there, it’s not there, it’s not there, it’s not there, it’s not there, it’s not there....until you’ re really get ready to drop in yourself.
A way to Share
So again the way that I’m sharing, the way that I’m inviting is first to start with this question: ‘who am I?’
‘Cause when you get that clear, when you really have that clear, everything else falls into its place!
So the invitation, Monica made this invitation to me to come and share with you today, and that’s what’s happening; so if you also came here, there is no mistake, no matter what you think, so I’m inviting any questions, that don’t have to be questions even, they can be confirmations, that I can confirm to you of what you’re already tasting and just shift it right into a direct recognition, to clarify, to confirm what you already know.
The meeting of That
And the meeting of That, the sharing of That is only here right now, is never going to be in the future, is never going to be...where is the future, where is the past?
You know it already: it’s here, it’s right now, the true meeting.
Beyond all these stories of my life and your life, who cares about that? It’s all just mind business; so just a story happening in the thinking, collected in the memory.
Means nothing!
You cannot take it with you! You will not take it with you when this body drops off!
Means nothing!
To come to taste, to come to know what will go with you when this body drops, is what all of this life is!
So, I’ll shut up and open the space for..... |
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